Erm... I'm so sorry...

Erm.. I tempted to MSN someone whom I've hurt...
Someone whom might be still angry with me...
Someone whom once bring lots of joy & laughter into my life...
Someone whom I think we can talk again like what we used to do in the past...
Someone whom once entered into my life & painted part of the picture...
Someone whom know that I'm talking non-sense, yet still listen to me...
Someone whom accept me as who I am...
Someone whom forgiven me for my silly act in the past...
Someone whom gave me courages & supports...
Someone whom encourages me to be myself...
Someone whom teaches me a lot of things...
Someone...
Someone...

Ichy fingers... Click on the ID so many times...
But I dare not send out anything...
I think both of us are not ready...

Really want to let you know what's going on in my life...
Got lots of things to share with you, my dear friend...
But I know this might not be the right time for me to talk to you...
Unless you're ready...

So, dear friend, just be who you are...
I'm always there to support you with prayers...

O ya... I'm the one who suppose to say sorry... But turned up I'm sound like... ...
Sorry, dear... If I've ever offended you... (Yes, I did...)
When you're ready to talk to me, call me la... Or MSN me...

I'm not the worm in your tummy, I do not know what's in your mind...
So, please please please let me know ya... ;)

Sweety Pie...
=)

Flash back -2006 / + 2007 Things to come

Don't reall have any special highlights for 2006...
Erm... Started with a smile =)
Ended with a different kind of smile =) (Haha... Stupid Claire!)

Kids... =P My little sons & daughters... My little bfs & princess...

Didn't get to carry out my backpack life during my birthday...
O ya... Old people like me, don't really take birthday as a big day anymore...
Cos' I used to forget bout other people's birthday, same goes the other way...
Fair & square...
O ya... Spent my birthday in Ah Sharz's place... Sweet... =)

Erm... Spent more time with Eileen throughout the year... Which is good... =)

Erm... Pei left to KL for study... =(
No one to fight with me anymore... (Erm... Still fighting when she's back here... =P)
Her relationship with papa has improved... Praise God! =)

Get to see my coll's friends this year... More than once... =)
Joey was back to town... =P
Went out together with Ngoh & Boon during Christmas season... =)

Felt super stress... (Forget about that...)

Heard his voice... Erm... Listen & action are 2 different thing...
Erm... Very hard tho... =P
But still need to learn... Really thank Him for His grace... =)

Erm... I really enjoy my time in Vietnam... =)
Eye opener... Experienced something different... =)
Lots of fun... =P

Lots of good things happen which I wish I'm able to stop the time...
To hold on to that moment... But I have to move on... =)

Erm... Blur time? Yup... All the while... Cos' I'm blur... =P

O ya... I can drink back my nice coffee d... =)
No more "effects-after-coffee"...
Isn't that great?

... ...

Life is like a dream...
Sometimes you've dream of something nice, which you don't feel like getting up from your bed...
Sometimes you've a nightmare, which makes you dare not close your eyes or go to bed...
No matter what, give thanks in every situation... Knowing that my Daddy is always by my side... =)

O ya... I've made a lot of new friends during this year...
Erm... Found out that there's a lot of interesting people in this world... =P

Erm... Got a few new members in m "Teddy World" - PinkaJol, 宝贝, ErnErn... ...

Erm... And now the world shall say to me, "Welcome to ME... (A replacement of "my world")"

New working place...
New resolutions...
New environment...
New goals...
New lifestyle?? (Might be... I want to go jogging...)
New hairstyle?? (Still pending...)
New expectation for myself...
... ...
& a new heart for God... =)

It's Your Turn, Claire... You're Farewell Lunch

Having farewell lunch from the kindy staff & church staff today...
Erm... An ordinary lunch, just slightly different from the other staff, cos we're not having it in the palm spring, but in 747 @ YMCA...

Erm.. Don't know what to say... Maybe b'cos I was prepared to go when I first join the organisation.
Remembered my famous words, "This world is not my home..."
I used to tell myself... I cannot be too attatch to any one, cos' I'll be leaving in future...
Used to keep my desk very "pro-office". Dare not put on any personal stuff & deco... (But at last I fail... Cos' it's so not me...)
- I like cute n nice stuff... =P

Leaving... It's not really that scary... Compare with seperation... That's more scary...

I didn't feel anything til we finished our makan...
Air-time... Nobody says anything...
Most of them command on my smile... =)
You're right... =)
Actually, most of the time, i don't know what to say, n I don't know what to do...
The only thing I can do is to =)

Aunty Alfie command on the children that gave me "love letters", hugs n kisses... =)
I really missed that... ='(
I missed the time I spent with the kids... The time when I can lower down my level & ask them "How are you? Why you never smile at me? Where's my hug? Say bye bye to daddy / mummy..."
The time that I ask them, "What happen to you? Why you do this? Are you ok? Can you tell me what's going on? Bla bla bla... ..."
(Lousy counseling teacher... Cheong hei - Canto)

Hold on to my tears, cos I told myself, no matter what, I'm not allow to cry... Tears cannot solve everything...

Lost of flash back...

Thank God. If we're having the lunch in Palm Spring... I don't think I'm able to go back to my office...
I might just break down and cry... =S
Lots of memory...

My eyes were watery during Aunt Alfie's "speech"...
Almost drop m tears when Pr. Jessilyn prayed for me...
I thought I'll cry during my way back to my new office...
But... "Brave Claire, you didn't drop a tear..." That's the command I gave...

Nothing is too big which I can't handle... Nope... I mean which God cannot handle...
So, I praise Him for that... =)

Looking back... I've been keeping up my promises to him, staying in where he'd placed me... Fulfilling our contract - 2 years...
It's amazing... I thought I'll never get it done...

Daddy, thank you for bringing me through all these while...
Please continue to hold m hands and never let me go no matter what I'll face in future... =)