Flute!!!

I want my flute!!! I miss my flute!!! I still want to play for You!!! When can I get it?? I really really cannot tahan d...
I miss my flute... I got lots of new songs which I have not play for You before...
I really really really "desperate" for a flute!!!
My pretty flute!!!

Sob* Sob*

I really cannot picture a flutist without having a flute... A flutist but have not touch a flute for "years"...

Sob* Sob*

A Pure Heart!!!

Wow... I was having a "long" talk on the phone with a friend yesterday...
It's nice to talk with you, dear...
But this morning get some scolding from my mi... =P
Haha... Actually it reminds me bout the time I used to share with the Ah-Kong's Family Member & also during college time...
Shirlyn, Alvin, Kar Tatt, all the cucu-cici, KJ, Joey, Bryan, Ah Ngoh... Where are u guys???
Really miss you all la...

Out of topic...

This morning... During my Morning Talk session, this song came into my mind when I was talking to Him...
Here goes the song~

A pure heart that's what I longed for
A heart that follows hard after Thee
A pure heart that's what I longed for
A heart that follows hard after Thee...

A heart that hides Your Words
So that sin will not come in
A heart that's undivided
But once You rule & reign...

A heart that sees compassion
That pleases You, My Lord
A sweet aroma of worship
That rises to Your Throne...

It really touches my heart... A heart that's pure & right before Him...
The song seems quite simple... But every time when I sing it, some how the words will become living... & I believe this is what CB mentioned...

Ya... It's true! A pure heart... A heart without any selfish motives, but only wants to seek Him & to glorify His Name...

Hopefully every one of us can work this out, one day... Cos' we're still learning... But I can see that in you, dear... Hopefully our dear friend can realize it one day... =)

Finally!!!

Finally!!! I got my new bike d...
It's quite cool...
Yeah... It's blue...

Finally!!! I got my hair straighten d...
Feel cool...
Erm... =)

Finally!!! I found out that we are not suitable for one another...
Then we broke up… The feeling has gone...
(That's what S told me… The sad ending of the story of a sweetie pie & a turtle...)

Finally!!! He got his new phone which makes me feel so jealous bout him...
But I got something much more expensive than his phone...
Haha... =P

Finally!!! Their broken relationship has been healed...
They become goodie brother once again...
I can get to see your dear brother & his family more often...
And he's here with his family in Penang more frequent...
I can talk to him with a smile on my face...

Finally!!! I've loose hope on you & I've learnt how to let you go & set you free...
Go, darling... Fly up high in the sky...
You can find another place which you belong to...

Finally!!! I touch a kitten...
The wall has been broken after so many years...
The fear has gone...

Finally!!! Finally!!! Finally!!!
When's your finally?
When will you take up your courage & take the first step?
When will you make up your mind?
When? When?

I don't know...

Mixed! Mixed! Mixed!!! All Mixed together...

Too many things come at the same time d...
Can't accept it...
Should I feel happy? Thankful? Or =(
Ya... I think I should...
But I =S at the same time...
Dunno what to do...

I've been cheated you for the past few months...
But why do you still treat me that good?
I'm not worth of your effort & time...
You can spend all these on other people's life... Those people who know how to appreciate & those who know how to love you...

Why? Why?
No!!! Please don't come so close...
Though I would like to... But you'll get to see the other side of me...
The unknown side, the dark side of me...
It'll hurt you even more... I'm sure you won't feel nice after you get to know the wild me...
I'm not up to your expectation... I'm going forward towards the vase type of people...
I'm just a grasp of ashes from the ground as what my name means...
I'm nothing over all...

The closer you come to me... The more unworthy part of me revealed...

Just like a small little ant in a black box... When it first saw the light after been captivated in the box for quite some time... Trying to hide itself from the light...

Just like the man in that show... He realized that all he did all these while was just something foolish... All the efforts he pays do not help him to maintain what he owes... He feels sorry... He feels lost... Feel unfair... Feel... Feel like going to be crazy soon.... Searching for a way to set himself free... Walking towards to his favorite mountain... Standing alone on the top of the mountain... Step by step walking towards the edge of the peak & look down to the valley... Asking the valley... Hope that there will be an answer or miracle he can find... Hope that he will get some feed back from the valley...

You said you'll never leave me... You always by my side... You'll go through every single step of my life with me...
I felt touch at that very moment... I cried...

But now... When I think of that... Even though I know you won't simply give promises... But somehow... I just feel...

No!!! Please... Let me go... Please...
No!!! Don't let go of your hand... Please...

I cried...

I ask myself do I still love you as what I used to?
Do I still trust in you as what I'm supposing to?

I know there's a war within my heart...
A battle of black & white...

Remember one of our dear friend's favorite song? The two Kings?
Now I can understand what does the lyric mean... And how important you are... to me...

=)